ummm. yeahh. disney in 7 days. should be fun.

i know that nobody reads these anymore..so i'll go ahead and let my steam out

I did something that I will never be forgiven for..and it sucks so freakin bad. I'm an idiot. He's an idiot. Why the hell are we such idiots? we love each other..yet we do this? if we were older this would be sooo much better. My theory is that we don't have a strong enough relationship with God within our own relationship. And that the devil is probably testing us..and since we're not strong..we're giving in. He shouldn't be forgiven for what he did..and I shouldn't be forgiven for what I did. We're pretty much equally douchebags in this. But I have all the faith in the world that its going to work out. I shouldn't..but I can't help it. This is supposed to work out..for whatever reason..it is supposed to. it also doesn't help that he's in another state. I miss him..

Hello. My summer is going good,  but not at the same time. I enjoy swimming when I get the chance. But I also got a job at sonic, and I hate it. so i'm planning on finding another job, that won't pay as well, but i'm not interested in working in the fast food industry, or any food industry. I no longer wish to ever eat at sonic, so I'm afraid if I work somewhere else I eat at, then I will no longer enjoy eating there. I can't wait for Crooked Creek. It's going to be a lot of fun. I'm also ready to get away from this house for a while. I think I need that. Not that I can't stand my family, but sometimes I wish I lived somewhere else. So I'm ready for that. I hope I get another job soon, like this week, so I'll have spending money for camp. I really can't wait. I'm going to be homesick I'm sure, because I always get that way, but it'll be fun. I'm ready to get closer to God again and I know that getting away for a while will help.

The Cosby Show is funny.

Goodnight. New post tomorrow.